Foresight

Do you ever just "know" things? I'm not talking about knowledge you get from school or books.. I mean know how things are going to turn out. One time I was driving with my husband to California and a car zoomed by us, zipping through the cars. My husband made a disapproving face, but I told him not to worry, they'd be broken down on the side of the road up ahead. I had no way of knowing that, but about 30 minutes later, we passed their broken down vehicle on the side of the road.

That kind of thing doesn't happen as often as I'd like it to. My son seemed to have the gift of "knowing" when he was younger. I laughed when he told me my book would be successful, both written and as a movie. (I'm still waiting for both.) But I came to a realization a few weeks ago and it was one of those "knowing" moments. I am putting in the time to research agents and get to know the industry through rejection after rejection. The highs of finishing writing/edits is mirrored by the lows of the "No"'s in my inbox. I get it... it's how the industry works. A lot of famous authors lament about how many rejections they received before they got their big break. But somehow I "know" that I won't find the agent I'm looking for by doing all this leg work. I'm going to find a connection either through someone I know or by happen chance by talking to new people about my writing.

I guess I believe in fate and that things happen for a reason. Maybe I'll only ever be famous in my own mind and published because I choose to self-publish. I hope that's not the case... I'd love for my words, my stories to touch other people as much as they've touched my life. I guess only time will tell. But I feel that this is going to be my year.

I'm looking forward to reading this again after something's happened and smiling about my "knowledge". I hope anyone that reads this is inspired to do the things that mean something to them and listen to the clues the universe or God or whatever you believe in gives us as we make choices.